I just finished the last portion of my comprehensive exam. I wrote about the first part that was 8 hours and I wrote 13 pages to answer 6 questions. The second part was 7 questions that took me nearly 9 hours to finish and I typed 15 pages of response. Today was sort of the grand finale. I met in a room with the six men who wrote the test questions and they grilled me on any weaknesses that I may have displayed in my responses to assure that I knew what I was talking about or find the things that I don't know. Today I was in the room for a mere 2 hours fielding questions. I addressed what I knew, but it is quite evident to all involved that I don't know everything. After deliberation, they said that I passed.
Now what? I have been studying for this exam during every spare moment I've had for the last 4 months or so. It's over. I don't don't have to take it again (which is good because I think I would have opted for a job at McDonald's before I spent another 4 months preparing for another test). Now what do I do? I know that I have two papers that I am trying to write that aren't finished yet. I know that would be a good place to start. I also know that I have a dissertation that I haven't started that I need to finish in order to graduate. Oddly enough, that's not what I want to do this afternoon. Instead I have a good Pandora station on REALLY LOUD and I'm trying to numb my brain as much as possible. Following the class that I have to teach this evening, I have scheduled a my bike ride home which will be as fast as possible to see if I can get rid of the nervous tension that still won't leave me alone.
Tomorrow, I will not come to school. I may not get out of bed. OK, I'm sure I'll get out of bed, but I may not get out of my pajamas. I intend to mow the lawn, weed the garden and otherwise not think for the entire weekend. If the weather is nice, maybe I'll go for a bike ride with the boys.
For now I'm going to return to my vegetative state staring at my computer, drooling slightly and waiting for the class that I have to teach so I can continue my life without thinking. I look forward to writing in the blog regularly again. At least until I get to deadlines for my dissertation.